YEN-SUX

I gave up on you.

2011-01-07T22:33:00.003+08:00

The moment you decided to ignore me for just 3days made me realize a lot of stuff.

& when I confronted you on the 4th day, you said you haven't let go of the past yet; you said it was hard for you.

All this time.. All this time you were only pretending to be happy with me.
Everything we've been through... gone just like that. Did it mean anything to you? At all?

I thought I could make up for all the mistakes I've done to you. But everything meant nothing to you.

I give up. I'm done trying. I'm done convincing myself that what we have is real. Lets just give up now.

I can't do this anymore. Its too much. If you need time and space, I can give you that, but I wont be there when you're back and okay. Not anymore.

Lets face it, we've had one, two chances too many. Its not working anymore.

2010-11-18T19:32:00.002+08:00

How long will I refuse to see the signs?

Have you noticed that no matter what we do,
no matter how hard we try, we always end up getting hurt,
and our hearts' break even more.

We swear to never fight again but we still do.
We promised to never hurt each other again but we still do.

How long can we do this?
How long can we endure the pain?
Is the pain still worth it?

This relationship was once our refuge,
our sanctuary, our hiding place from all the pain,
but this relationship have become our problem
It became the pain.

We have made a big, deep wound in our hearts
Is it still worth healing?
or is it better to leave it and let it heal by itself.
Because it will but it would take a lot of time. A LOT
but the time would be worth it.

I know how terrible I am as a person.
but you're not so good yourself.
You constantly push me to be the person that I avoid to be.

I don't get angry that often,
but you make me reach my boiling point quicker.
& although I constantly try to become a better person,
to be a role model for you, you still choose to go your way

I have my pride, higher than the Eiffel Tower.
and nobody could break that pride, not even you.

No one and i mean, NO ONE could make me do something
that I dont want to do, again, not even you.

I have a mind of my own, if I dont want to be friends with someone
no one can make me, not even you.

If I am angry with someone, no one can tame me.
& only I can decide what I want to do when my anger goes away

I am no robot. I may not have full control of myself.
but I still can control myself.
I don't need you to tell me what to do with my life.

It is ironic of me to constantly say the quote

" dont make decisions when youre angry"

to people when I myself do decisions when Im furious.

but hey, I'm only human.
I aint perfect, you know.

I commit mistakes, maybe always
but at least I try to avoid doing those mistakes.

I have a lot of thinking to do.

hi bloggy :\

2010-09-21T21:55:00.003+08:00

We are the captains of our souls.
& I should be able to have the power and control over myself,
my thoughts and my actions. But how come I find it hard to do so?

My mood is constantly changing. one minute im all smiley faced and all that and the next second im grouchy and grumpy and whatnot. & i hate it >___<

& because of that constant changes in my mood, i hurt the people around me.
I did not intend to do so & its beyond my control.

I want to stop, I want to change. But its easier said than done :(

A thought came to my mind, if I dont want to hurt those people anymore, I should avoid them. But I think it would hurt them more if I do that. dont ya think? :\

Im lost once again :|

This day should be one of the best days of my life
and I ruined it :( I destroyed it.

Things happened at the wrong time,
Emotions came in at the wrong queue
& my Attitude showed at the wrong date.

Everything was wrong, and it is all my fault.

If I wasnt such a problem child,
If I didn't have this stupid moodswings.
None of this could've happened.

I dont wanna hurt anyone anymore .... but how?

I am the cause of all things gone wrong.
I am the reason for the pain and sufferings.
I am a hypocrite, dangerous to the world.
I am the person I hate.

2010-09-03T17:32:00.001+08:00

I do not want to go back to my old ways

2010-08-28T17:23:00.000+08:00

Ako na siguro ang pinakaswerteng tao sa mundo,
dahil nasa akin si God :)

2010-08-26T14:53:00.001+08:00

why do you have to be so hard all the time..

2010-08-07T15:10:00.002+08:00

habang unti unti ko ng kinakalimutan ung sama ng loob ko
saka naman dumating tong bwiset sa buhay na babae na to.

ano ba kasing ginagawa ko sa kaniya?
ako na nga tong lumalayo sa gulo
siya pa tong lapit ng lapit.

hindi ako yung tipo ng tao na umuurong.
kahit ako pa ung mali, bsta maipaglaban ko lang ung sarile ko.

pero iba kapag siya ang nilabanan ko.
marami kasi siyang hawak against me.

pero why should I care?
sige, ipagkalat niya.
anong mapapala niya?
magiging masaya ba siya sa gagawin niya?
I hope yes. Kasi buhay, reputasyon at katauhan ang sinisira niya dito.
at pati ibang tao dinadamay na niya.

Atleast ako, may mga tunay na kaibigan.
E siya? Anong meron siya?
Mga kakampi na hindi naman niya alam kung
hanggang kelan siya sasamahan.

Naaawa ako sayo.
Ganito ka na ba kadesperada makakuha ng atensyon?
Well, ayan ang atensyon na hinahanap mo.
Sayo na Lahat. Puro Negative naman :P
Saksak mo sa baga mo. XD

Hayyyy. Come What May :)
I'm keeping my mouth shut.

2010-08-04T21:40:00.002+08:00

Sa'yo Lang Ako Ganito.

Okay na eh.
Ang saya na..

Araw-araw okay, nagkkwentuhan, nagtatawanan
Kaso may nagawa ka nanamang kinasama ng loob ko.
Alam kong sabi niyo mag-open up ako para alam niyo kung anong problema
Para mabago niyo. Para malaman niyo.
Hindi yung bigla na lang akong mag-iiba.
Hindi ko nalang sinabi dahil gusto kong kalimutan nalang.

E, Kaso hindi ko naman nakalimutan.
Kahit anong gawin niyang tama, nagiging mali para sakin dahil sa sama ng loob na yon.
It doesn't seem like a big deal but it is, TO ME.

[Sunday Aug 01 2010]

Lahat kami nagsimba ngaun. Kasama sila Tita at Jalex
It was all good until matapos ung mass.
Gusto ni papa na mag-attend kami pareho ni Tita ng Pre-Encounter.
Ayaw ni tita dahil kasama si Jalex.
Ayaw ko ring mag attend mag-isa

E hiwalay rin naman pala yung rooms ng Adults sa Children
So napilitan lang si Tita, kaya ayun nagalit na siya.
Nauna na siya umuwi, hindi na niya kami nahintay ni Papa.

I waited for my father na matapos magpabaptize.
Tapos umuwi kami para sunduin sila Tita dahil kakain kami sa labas.
Masungit na siya as in Bad Mood na.

Hindi ko alam kung kanino ba siya galit.
Kay Papa, Saken o parehas.
Kaya nanahimik na lang ako.

On our way sa resto, I asked my dad about my bday plans.
Andaming sinuggest ni papa.
Tapos biglang sabi ni Tita

"Bakit kasi hindi nalang sa bahay maghanda?! Andami dami mo pang maaabala"

I really didnt like her tone.
Na parang ayaw niya ko magbday.
Once in a Year na nga lang, kokontrahin pa.
Once a year na nga lang maaabala, ayaw pa.
Sumama na talaga ng sobra ung loob ko.

and thats the reason why merong naganap na drama dito kanina.

Sana hinintay mo muna na makaalis yung mga kasama ko
bago mo ko inarmalite.
Sinagot-sagot kita kasi nga galit na rin ako sayo.

SAWANG SAWA NA KO.
SAYO LANG NAMAN AKO HIRAP MAKISAMA.
HINDI TAYO MAGKAINTINDIHAN.

sana nga hindi nalang ako pinanganak
para wala kayong sakit sa ulo
wala kayong pinoproblema
at wala akong nasasaktan.

hindi ko alam kung may pagasa pa bang magbago to
at sa totoo lang nawawalan nako ng pagasa para maging maayos to

dun nalang kaya ako sa mga tita ko?
atleast sila naiintindihan ako.

Kung sabagay, kayo lang naman ang hindi nakakaintindi sakin e

2010-08-01T19:12:00.001+08:00

tamang iwas lang :)

2010-07-27T16:28:00.001+08:00

2010-07-26T20:50:00.001+08:00

oh fuck, please

JUST SHUT THE HELL UP!

2010-07-20T21:00:00.002+08:00

dont know if I could ever be
without you cos you complete me
and in time we know that we'll both see
that we're all we need

cos you're the apple to my pie
you're the straw to my berry
you're the smoke to my high
and you're the one i want to marry

cos you're the one for me, for me
and im the one for you, for you
we'll take the both of us, of us
and were the Perfect Two :)

2010-07-19T16:36:00.002+08:00

And just when I thought that all hope was gone.

God gave me hope :)

I prayed last night and this morning for something new to happen. Something that would change everything. a sign that would tell me whether I should hold on or move on.

and there it was ..

During our Science groupings, Alshly handed me this letter from Mau(the girl who means the world to me) Actually I wasnt supposed to know that Alshly was going to put the letter in my pocket but I saw her so she just told me that the letter is from Mau and told me to not tell her that it was from her. ? XD

then I went to the washroom to read the letter.

She wrote Hold On. She told me to not give up on her. and She told me that she loves me :> thats what I've been longing to hear/read :)) and instantly I felt strengthened. I once thought about giving up but I dont really think I could do it but now that she gave me hope again, theres no way im letting go of my girl :)

"forever 21, okay?"

2010-07-16T14:35:00.002+08:00

"mejo complicated lang ang mga bagay ngaun pero PROMISE hindi kita iiwan. love na love kita SOBRA. meron lang akong kailangang ausin at ayaw kita madamay"

such sweet words
words that I read every single night
before I go to sleep.

It gives me hope and strength
to face you the next day

I know you have problems
problems that you have to deal with on your own
I wish there was some way I could help, though

I love you, I hope you still know that.
I'll wait for you no matter what.
Just come back to me, please

2010-07-15T17:57:00.002+08:00

Hanggang Ngayon

hanggang kelan mo kaya ko di papansinen?

alam mo kung ano yung masakit?
yung nilalayuan ka ng pinakaimportanteng tao sa buhay mo
nang hindi mo naman alam ang dahilan.

alam mo kung ano yung mas masakit?
yung sa araw araw na dumadaan
laging may gumugulo sa isipan mo.
kung ano ba talagang nangyayare?
hindi mo malaman kung anong gagawin mo.
hindi mo maintindihan kung bakit bigla na lang nagkaganun.

may nagawa ba kong mali?

ang saya saya natin ilang araw lang makalipas.
tapos dumating ung lintik na araw na yun.
tapos wala na, tuluyan ka ng lumayo.
nagbago ka na ..

ano ba dapat kong gawin?
alamin kung anong problema?
(na alam kong imposible)
o tanggapin na ayan ka na talaga.

ikaw na ba talaga yan?
naging isang istranghera nalang sa buhay ko.

siguro tuluyan mo na kong binura sa buhay mo.

siguro nga isa akong duwag.
sinukuan kita agad.
wala naman kasi akong magawa
kundi maghintay sa imposible.
umasa sa araw na hindi naman na talaga darating.

this is hopeless.
i dont know how much longer i could hold.

2010-07-14T18:23:00.002+08:00

The situation's gaining momentum and this feeling's getting tense.
My emotions are building up, and everything's not making sense.
I'm losing my sanity. I feel like I'm losing everything I cared about.
This heart is nothing without you're presence, clearly.
This mind is drowning in doubt.

I wonder whats going on in your head right this very moment?
Why everthing turned upside down all of a sudden.
I thought it was only for a short period of time,
I'm missing you so much, if it gets too long, I could die.
This hurts badly, cant you tell?
Its like you dont care at all, its like you're under a spell.

Maybe its just me, maybe my mind's too shallow to understand.
But I'm losing all sense of hope,
My grip is slowly loosening, its slipping through your hands.
Its painful enough to witness you ignoring me
but what hurts the most is seeing you happy ... without me

Its like I'm no longer needed in your life.
but I hope there is some other reason why you're doing this
Its like no matter how hard I try,
Its always you that I miss.

Why cant you tell me? Am I not worthy of your trust?
Have I betrayed you before? Is this a command? Is this a must?
I don't know why you're letting her control your life.
You used to be that someone who wouldn't let anything interfere with what you want.

Where's the old you?
Where have you taken my best friend?
Is this person I see the new you?
Or is she still there somewhere underneath?

Oh God, I know that you know whats going on.
It doesn't matter if I know or not,
Just please help her, guide her in everything that she does.
So that she wouldn't do anything wrong, or anything that she would regret.
Please give her peace of mind to go through with life everyday.
Remind her that you're always there, dont let her be led astray.

And if there's nothing I could do to help her.
Help me stay away and keep all the pain inside.
Give me patience, so I could wait until everything's alright.
Lend me strength, so I could smile even though my heart is breaking
And please stay with me, until my heart stops aching

I love her, Lord.
I would confess this everyday.
Although I don't know how much longer I can hold.
I would count on the day where all the pain would go away ...

2010-07-07T18:26:00.000+08:00

bakit ganun?

2010-06-21T13:57:00.003+08:00

ang kapal eh. XD

hindi naman siya si POGI eh!! hahaha

feeler? yung totoo.

aun nabasag ang status ko sa fb. tsktsktsktsktsksktsktsktsk

21 ngaun!!! ibig sabihin. masaya dapat ang lahat ♥

lalo na kaming dalawa ng Bez ko.

gagawa ako ng sulat para aun, pero mas bobonggahan ko ung akin :D

mahal kita

2010-06-20T12:39:00.001+08:00

Kahit kelan ang OA ko talaga :D
or ano, sadyang un na lang ung naiisip ko
at that time kase ewan ba.
pero ngaun im okay im alright na.

nagkakatex na kami ulit oh :)))
andun na ung ngiting abot anit. hahaha

iloveyousomuch :D

ganda ng araw bukas. hahaha

2010-06-18T13:18:00.000+08:00

get ready

2010-06-17T13:50:00.002+08:00

kainis talaga.
I feel like something is terribly wrong
pero I dont want to jump onto conclusions.
Pero grabe ang hirap hindi magisip :'(
bakit ganun?
siguro sumobra na ko kaya umayaw na siya.
pero sana sabihin niya.
Ayoko talaga as in ng ganitong nagiisip ako
ng kung anu anong cheber eklaboo. nakakadown.
my gooooooooodness :
kanina eh talagang nalungkot ako nung naalala ko ung dati na
ang saya saya niya, lagi siyang nakangiti, lagi kami naguusap pero aun nga may wall na in between kaya wala na rin lahat.
UH! ayoko na T.T ambigat nam pakiramdam ko.
parang naninikip dibdib ko. byebye

2010-06-17T13:41:00.001+08:00

siguro nga wala na ..

2010-06-16T16:34:00.005+08:00

dati kahit malayo tayo sa isat isa

we were super close

and we find ways to BE close

but then now its like there's this wall between us

and i dont know if we'll ever overcome or break that wall.

Pero ngaun anlapit mo na sakin

pero it seems like you're a world apart.

I guess all I can really do is be happy for you.

I cant really do the first step cause

I dont know what the first step is or how to do it.

Bakit ganun?

Feeling ko anlungkot ko,

na parang nawala ka na sakin

pero anjan ka pa rin naman. susme! XD

andraaaamaaa oi!

ah basta tinype ko to dito para

kahit papano gumaan naman ang pakiramdam ko.

feeling ko kase pasan ko na mundo. hahaha

You Dont Know What You Have Until Its Gone ..

2010-06-09T19:56:00.002+08:00

Its just one of those days when I feel unappreciated and unworthy of living .. :|

2010-05-14T23:22:00.002+08:00

you dont have to hurt yourself or cut yourself just to know if i appreciate you or not ..

because every breath you take, and just the thought of you living is enough for me ..

you dont know how thankful i am to have met you

you've made such a huge impact on my life, and i think you already know that.

please just take of yourself at times that i couldn't

eat on time, stay away from blades and especially danger.

and though its impossible,

i wish you could stay away from the pain ; the pain that i cause you

there are lots of things that i wish i could protect you from

and one of those things is me

i wish i could protect you from me

because sometimes, all of a sudden and sometimes without me knowing , i can hurt you.

i dont want to, but i just do :'(

so im sorry in advance for all the pain that you'll feel

thats all i guess

i love you

2010-05-12T23:05:00.002+08:00

"kung sino pa yung nagmamahal ng totoo, yun pa yung nasasaktan ng sobra"

sorry. sorry kung hindi ko mapatunayang mahal talaga kita.
sorry kung hindi mo na ko mapaniwalaan gawa ng kilos ko
sorry, hindi kasi tayo pwede eh

anjan naman siya para sayo eh
sigurado akong hindi ka niya sasaktan.

ano pa ang silbe ko sa buhay mo
e puro sama lang naman ng loob ang binibigay ko sayo
yun lang naman ang ginawa ko sa buhay mo -- ang saktan ka

wala nga talaga kong ginawang matino.

sorry ha. kung binigyan ko ulit siya ng chance.
wala naman talagang ibang choice.
pero hindi pa rin ako magseseryoso.

wala akong ibang masabi kundi sorry.
sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry ...

sorry, i love you

2010-05-12T22:33:00.001+08:00

im tired and sick of the drama >.<

2010-05-11T12:29:00.001+08:00

i wanna go back to Singapore :'(

2010-05-10T12:18:00.002+08:00

with or without you

2010-05-07T20:22:00.002+08:00

this post is especially for my beloved STALKER :>

haha you know who you are, right?
and if you really are stalking me then great =))

i love you XD

i watched a basketball game today ! [share xD]
the team we were cheering for was team eXDee :)
awesome name right? not? ugh screw you :P

um what else?

messages are delayed today. damn >.<
fuck you globe. fuck .. you

2010-03-25T10:18:00.004+08:00

so whats been happening?

well, lots of things have happened

ive grown tired of this lovestory shit

hahaha. but i cant even last a week without a boyfr

i break up with one, there comes another

haha i dont know why i dont try and reject them

i guess im too good to do that. lol? .. XD

um. so yea, what else?

well um were on vacation.

sophomore year is over.. T.T

its so boring at home, i wanna go out like all day everyday

but thats impossible, haha i know

with strict parents like mine, i dont have a chance

i miss my friends alot .. :((

i miss Sir Greg.

I wish he's still our subject teacher next school year

i hope our teachers arent KJ's

i have a feeling that i wont enjoy my junior year

and i d k why.

but i guess its too soon to tell :))

i gotta stay positive

okay thats all

im up on Facebook 24/7 Ü

Andrei Myles Candido Lagua ♥

2010-01-24T18:15:00.000+08:00

yawn :)

2009-12-23T00:15:00.001+08:00

im going to hongkong on dec-24-09
weee so excited :))
wish we would rather go to singapore instead
but hmm.. nevermind :))

2009-12-16T13:02:00.000+08:00

kahit pala gano ka-strong ang pag ibig mo sa isang tao,
posible pa rin itong maglaho na lang ng bigla..

badtrip kanina sa school :))
late ako nagising, hahaha
tapos ang cute ng ayos ko..sabi ni maegan ^^
npagod ako sa mga utos ni sir Greg
punta dito, punta doon
puntahan si ano, si ano, kunin ung ano kay ano
haaaay kapagod xD
tapos napauwi kami kagad, nwalan ng choir practice.
kase ba naman, may dalawa..DALAWA lang na members ha
na umuwi para mag lunch, eh nlaman ng directress..
aun pinauwi na lang lahat..amp eh

un lang haha

2009-12-07T19:42:00.002+08:00

120709 - 2months<3

though our relationship was once,twice or thrice broken
its still us in the end
though i've shed uncountable tears for you
though i've bled for you just because..
though i lost you
I have you again please dont let me go through hell like before.
dont make me cry, dont provoke me to get drunk again
and please..dont break my heart..its too fragile already

2009-12-01T19:47:00.002+08:00

love exists in both sexes
so dont blame me if I saw love in her
and dont judge me if i fell for a woman

she was like the sun to me
as the sun rises, and wakes me up
she was the first thing that comes to my mind
and as it sets, and gives that relaxing feeling
she was the only one who could keep me calm

but things went wrong
its sadder than the saddest love song
i think i lost her
but im not letting go
because i cant...i cant

2009-11-29T23:15:00.001+08:00

okay how are things so far ?

well, i went from loyal lover to bi-sexual freak
to two-timing wreck to hopeless suicidal to complicated mindfreak
and back to loyal lover. period

2009-11-21T23:13:00.001+08:00

I KISSED A GIRL, AND I LIKED IT

its not any different from kissing boys ^^

2009-11-03T12:52:00.002+08:00

happily never after

I have no idea how to explain
the events that happened
in this life of mine for the past
few days... I dont even know
how to start. ugh.. >.<

I'm done with love..
I'm sick of relationships..
I'm so tired of getting hurt..

Wala naman akong ginagawang masama ah..
Minahal lang naman kita,
Bakit kailangan mo kong saktan ng ganito? T.T

I think I'll distant myself, my heart
from guys for awhile
they always steal it for a stupid reason
and that is ; for them to break it..

My heart's so fragile alreadyyyyyy...gosh

2009-10-24T20:56:00.002+08:00

October 23, 2009 - everything still ended

so yeah, when I got home
we texted then we ended it
actually I did, because he said
He didn't wanna hurt me anymore
so I said, okay , then let me go.
then he did.

I dont know if it was the right thing to do
because I still love him...
no matter how many times he has done me wrong
and no matter how many time he had hurt me
and even if he broke and mended my heart as a hobby

im still confused
its like nothing changed between us

and that he never wanted to end what we have
it was I who ended it

so I felt a little guilty but heck, everything happened already..

lets just go with the flow

2009-10-23T20:11:00.002+08:00

October 23, 2009 -- everything was supposed to end

nothing happened though, after my bible study
we met , we stood there, no words, no nothing.
I walked out on everyone, my friends, him..
because I couldn't end it

I couldn't do it, I couldn't say 'its over'
maybe I was just too scared to say
and my mind is still not at ease

Its like I wanted so badly to help him get over his 1st love
that part of me wanted me to stay with him
but the other part said 'you already tried, but you didnt succeed, its time to give up'

underneath the shattered pieces of my broken heart,
there still lies a piece saying -im still whole, love him before I break too-

I dont know what to do ...
What should I do?

He told almost everyone about this date,
everything was gonna end today, but unfortunately
for him(I guess)nothing ended...

I couldn't do it.
If he could, then he should end it ...

but I cant...

2009-10-20T16:09:00.002+08:00

i hate her >:|

Why does everything she do, or say has to be negative?
How come she considers everyone around her as her enemies?
Why is she like this?

I used to call her -my- friend .
but now, everything just turned upside down.

She used to be so sweet.
She used to be someone I love
She used to be someone I look up to.
but now, she's just a complete stranger with a name.

I'll forget everything about you from now on ;
Isabela Carla Bayonas Ros

2009-10-17T13:18:00.003+08:00

hello.
exams are over :)) finally ...

okay so uhm, how can i begin?

im no longer single xD
he patched back up with me ytd.
he wanted another chance,
ako naman si tanga, bigay lang ng bigay
kahit hindi pa masyadong handa.

medyo na-trauma ako eh
pero he promised na he wont hurt me na talaga

ngaun kapag sinaktan nya ko ulet
intentionally man o hindi.
i will close my heart na
sasarado ko na ang puso ko.

hanggang maging buo na ule
at maging handa para sa
susunod na guy na may hawak ng susi :D

i wont have any regrets :)

2009-10-15T20:26:00.003+08:00

im updating this thing because of you, Carlo.
since you're the only one who cares 'bout this thing hahaha

okay so im single .. again xD
i cant last long in relationships.
it seems like i give a lot , too much...
and when i gave all that i could
the guy is asking for more
but I have nothing more to give because
I've given my all, gets? :))

so umm.. now that im fucking single, whats next? hahaha

oh gosh i completely forgot that i have my exams tomorrow.
but heck, nvm.
I'll screw it anyway, 0:-)
bbye

2009-10-08T21:01:00.002+08:00

facebook kills my time. xD

the moment i come home from school, I put down my bag.
open my laptop and log in into my facebook immediately

haha its somehow frustrating to check
all the games, update whatever i need to update
and upload photos.haha

but its all worth it.

i still dont know how to balance my time
especially now that i have lots of projects to do.. grr..

thats it ;)

October 07, 2009 <3

2009-10-03T12:03:00.002+08:00

how did we wind up like this.. ?

ang gulo talaga..

one minute we're fine, talking to each other
holding each others hand..
then the next minute, he walks out on me
not looking back when i called him.

its all so frustrating..

i dont know if i could hold on much longer... hindi pa rin kase buo ung pagmamahal.. hindi ko alam kung buo pba ung mabbgay ko..

im getting discouraged even more and more as the days go by.

im trying my best to not let it get to me, but i never thought that it would be this hard...

phew.

2009-09-30T20:49:00.002+08:00

what fucking right do you have to get mad ?

ayan nanaman eh, nagagalet ng baluktot ang rason
bigla bigla nalang akong mumurahin , wala naman akong ginagawa. aba,
amputa pla ha? tsk

so what kung kasama ko si mau nung oras na yun?!
eh nandun lang naman sa labas ng bahay.

tapos kung anu ano pang sinasabi na kapag siya daw ang kasama gustong gusto ko ng umuwi.

i guess he doesn't see na what we have is illegal.

ginagawa ko na nga lahat para sa lahat ng lakad kasama ko, nagsisinungaling, ginagawang tanga yung ibang tao, tapos ayan.. eto pa makukuha ko?! tang ina naman !

magmamatigas nanaman yan ngayon, aba, natyempuhan mo galet ko, bahala na lang kung anong mangyayare, bwiset..! punyetang buhay toh ,oo.

tapos mas lalo akong nagalet nung sinabi nyang tinatamad siyang magtext at nag bye pa.. hindi na ko nag reply kase umuusok na talaga ko sa galet..baka kung ano pa magawa ko sa selpon ko , sayang kabago bago pa naman.

ah basta! wasak ang gabe ko! tinatarantado nanaman ang buhay ko, this time hindi ako magpapakatanga at magpapakalambot.. bahala na..

2009-09-24T18:06:00.003+08:00

She's not pretty,
but she never fails to mesmerize me.

This path of life i took is taking me to places I never thought I'd reach or go back to..again.

I told myself I wont doubt, but when it comes to issues like that, I always end up falling in the pit of 'thinking twice'.

...but the up side is, I proved to myself,as he said that he is serious, that I really dont need to doubt or to worry. He's true to himself, to me and to what he feels.

Maybe its just me, who needs to clear up my mind and make sure that this feeling is what i think im feeling..

I dont want to make the same mistake twice, its too traumatic & not to mention, dramatic..so i really need to make some deep,brain-twisting,mind-numbing thinking.

CHEERS ;D

2009-09-22T19:57:00.003+08:00

uhmm..

things have changed

and im having second thoughts on whether i should change along with it

i dont think i can handle the pressure

i dont wanna be toyed again.. but hell..

here i go again :\

2009-09-17T18:34:00.003+08:00

omg.fighting more than usual.
this is bad... fcuking bad.

but were okay now, at least i think we are.

its a simple story actually, but once words
cum out from my mouth, its all gonna be
C-O-M-P-L-I-C-A-T-E-D ... so nvm ;D

as long as things are back to normal.

i should learn to be positive, i dont wanna fight again

2009-09-14T20:02:00.003+08:00

i have never fallen for anyone as hard as i have fallen for him :))

past few days had been quite a ride.

even better and wilder than a roller coaster.

i have no idea how to explain.

its like words aren't enough to explain this.

but one thing's for sure...

this love, that i feel for him... is true :D

2009-09-10T13:49:00.002+08:00

Desperate for changing, Starving for truth,

I'm closer to where I started, I’m chasing after you

Now I'm falling even more in love with you

Letting go of all I’ve held onto

I'm standing here until you make me move

I'm hanging by a moment here with you

I'm living for the only thing I know

I'm running and I'm quite sure where to go

And I don't know what I'm diving into

Just hanging by a moment here with you

its for you(:

alam mo n kung sino ka

ilysm

2009-09-05T21:18:00.003+08:00

well as usual...things are still crazy for me.

whether its about love or just life.

i dont think i want to talk about it here.

its toooooo ..... complicated :)

haha.. haikal's having probs lehh

he's having the guts to stand up to Mr Ho. :(

oh gosh, he's a close friend of mine but still..

its wrong uhh haikal

2009-09-01T20:19:00.003+08:00

im in a sticky situation...

why must love be this '--crazy' to me?!

why must cupid aim his

frrreakin' arrow at me all the time?!

and why the hell does he keep shootin' his

arrow to almost every guy i befriend!

my gosh, i think im going crrazzyy... as if i wasnt crazy before, hah!

well... this post was nonsense. i have no idea what to do anymore!

>.< i cant believe i have to face 'ahem&ahem' again.. bwahahaha

pretend that yknow what the eff im talking about and laugh, kay?

guubye

2009-08-30T21:19:00.003+08:00

first picture, cute girl in the right..

Ms. Arleia Agustin

she's turning 13 tomorrow.

her birthday was held today, earlier.. because ..dunno x))

haha ymau, 2nd picture, girl in the right

why ymau?[ee-mau]

well my name is yen , and her name is maureen

we just combined our names, then started calling each

other ymau. okay? gets? okay.. -.-"

she went to my house at around 330ish?

then went to golden city, thats wher arleia lives..

maureen is wilder than i thought =))

ya then, we ate..of course..then went to bianca's house

another classmate of ours, then we played 'ice breakers'

a game wher u choose a card then it hold a question

verrry usisero questions. bwahaha

ther, ah uhm

my hon is sick.. :(

2009-08-28T22:43:00.002+08:00

sa wakas may mcp buo picture na ;D

haha amboring ng palarong pilipino ngaun

yung pinagpraktisan, pinagpawisan na praktis

para sa pambansang awit, aun lang? kmsta nmn yon

prang kht d magpraktis, aus lang e.amp

haha pictures nsa facebook,

videos nsa facebook, di nga lang lahat ;D

ge ge bye bye bye

2009-08-27T18:00:00.002+08:00

hindi ako pinilit ni ano para mag post. haha

mejo naing busy lang dahil sa ano. aun hahaha

eto ako ngaun, nanunuod ng katorse ;D

mukang payboritz ko n toh . . .

kanina sa school, puro kachorbahan nanaman ang

mga pinagusapan namen nila naara at dian.

bsta aun na un..

bukas palarong pilipino na.. pota.

ayoko tlga umatend XD

geh bye, love u!

2009-08-23T12:25:00.002+08:00

its baguio , bitch ;D

I'll be here for the next 5 days.. so bye ;D

2009-08-19T17:41:00.003+08:00

nilibre ako ni sweetie ngaun (:

tapos si milk choco andun rin ...

haha aun lang

EXAMS ARE SHITTY AS FUCK..gosh

2009-08-15T19:32:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EKA ! (:

she's fourteen na, tulad ko ;D

hope u enjoyed this day!

2009-08-14T20:26:00.002+08:00

makikita nyo sa mga pictures at videos ko sa facebook

ang kabaliwan namen kanina, tntmad akong ikwento

panuorin nyo na lang a ;D

ge thanks bye

2009-08-13T16:14:00.003+08:00

BELATED HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

dami pa ring nag ggreet . haha

aun kanina, nag bigay ng regaLo si LALAINE GUINGCANGCO

and AIAH DELA MERCED.

na touch uLet ako ;D

thankssssss tlga sobra..

2009-08-12T15:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEDES ADRIENNE 'YEN' LAMSEN BELLEZA

katorse na ko mga peeps ;D

bad3p kxe siLa steffi, gerryL, shenead at meLdy

d manLang ako ginrit ? amp.

haha nakakatampo! ;P

o aun, pagpasok ko sa skuL, daming nag greet ;D

actually the night before, dami n tLgang nag aadvance e

tapos aun, binigyan ako ng regaLo ng section ko(gideon)

then nag picturan for a whiLe .

nakaka touch kase si ser Greg dapat sa ciudad grande mag

tuturo nung araw na yon, sa ecs muna siya dumerecho

because of ME :D naks dba?!

then aun, nung recess dami ding nag greet ;D

tapos eto na , may handaan kase sa bahay ng mga 3pm

pinakaunang dumating eh si

KATHLEEN FAYE ARAGON aka BABSKIE ;D

tapos aun, nag sidatingan na ang mcp..la pa c naara.

then .. edi nd pa muna kumakaen.

dumating sina chen,thea,ruth,jessica,frances, at ung

buong jehosaphat! haha, grabeh..

sapilitan pang pumasok sa loob ng bahay, ewan ko kng baket

haha then nung nkpasok na lahat, kumaen cla

ung jehosaphat sagLet lang, kase bumaLik siLa dun

keLa teacher Greis, dinaLaw kase niLa... then

nag magic trick si naara, nandun sa facebook ko ung video

takbuhan gaLore.

AY! before paLa nun, dumating sina

Casey,Puji,EJ,JC,Martin

takot na takot silang lumapit sa pagkaen kase nasa

malapit s mga girls ung food. naging utusan si casey

haha la na siya nagawa, sumunod nlng

haha then pagtapos kumaen ng lahat, ligpit lang saglit..

then pumunta din kami keLa teacher Greis

naka saLubong namen siLa Ruth, bbaLik dapat siLa samen

pero nd nLang, baLik uLet keLa cher Greis haha

then pagtapos... uwian na. hinatid ako ni CarLa..

npdaan sa kapitbahay, na chinorva ako..

may bf nba daw ako. chorvalicious.. xD

haha tapos meron pang next batch ng mga bisita

siLa Bea,Aaron,Ezra.. pinabaLik ko si casey

kase nd daw xa nkakain ng ayos. haha

aun, nanuod ng cartoons, mejo gabi na non kaya

umuwi na rin sila kagad..

na disappoint ako kase .. may nalaman ako.. secret nlng un

tapos meron pa ulet next batch ng bisita

belleza family ;D

si lolo puro little lady ang bukambibig. aun kase tawag nya

kaya Jalex, ung kapatid ko. haha

nakakatuwa na nakakabinge e.

so aun lang ;D

TENKYU SA LAHAT !!! MWA!

2009-08-11T18:35:00.003+08:00

bonding with darling sister.. and FYI!

i aint bullying her ! she's bullying me!

look at her hand, its actually pulling my hair! ;D

GOOD DAY Philippines, Singapore.. and wherever.

haha TOMORROW'S my birthday leh!! OH MY MY MY MY

im freakin xcited, dunno y.

i want everyone to greet me! haha as in everyone.

even if i have to choke them to death before they say it

just kidding, but seriously.... NAH! haha

effin effin effin effin... EFFIN! xcited.

im gonna die of curiosity and anxiety

goodbye ;D

2009-08-10T14:14:00.004+08:00

dalawang araw na lang...

hindi ko na siya hinintay, tagal nya lumabas ng bahay

ayan tuloy. , hindi sabay. hahaha

HAYY..lunes nanaman. at martes bukas, at miyerkules kinabukasan.

nung konek? ahem ewan. aus lang ang umpisa ng linggo ko.

wala msyadong mgndang maikkwento e.nd naman mxadong

maingay at matrip ang araw na itetch

pinakopya ko cla puji at ej bago mag flag ceremony

aun lang... sa loob ng classroom wala mxadong ngyre.

mabait raw ako sabi ni JAM (:

(akala mo lang un) JOKE hehe

tas si krishaputs, nagpa bangs ! ashushu.. haha

wala na, wala na wala na.

2009-08-09T21:03:00.003+08:00

uso ba ang sumbrero mga pips ?

ehem hello ?

nagpunta sila BES,aaron,ezra,geLOW kanina..

ayun, nakaka op. as usual naman.

'i want so bad to relate, but i cant'

emote e nuh, kabatrip.. aun lang ung nkakaines e.

wa ibang mapag usapan kundi mga tao sa scitech

na hindi naman namen kilala ni gelo...

at ung iba, la naman talaga kame pake.

tss. nag uusok na ilong ko.

aun nkta ko si casey, dumaan... ewan ko kng baket nagpalakpakan

mga ogags sila.. kasama na cla ezra don, pasimuno CHE.

haha nd ako galet a, linawin ko lang :D

aun, pasok nnaman bukas..

magkkwento ulet ako, ggising ako ng maaga, pero malalate pa rin

hehe amp. ge gudnyt mga pare :)

2009-08-07T20:19:00.003+08:00

had another bible study :))

talked about 'is money bad?' and uhm..

how to be righteous.

madami kami kanina.

dumagdag sila maureen at mikee.

dapat nandun din sila carla, kat at krisha eh

kaso nd sila pwede, next week na lang daw :))

OMG! naawa ako kay teacher Greis.

though i said her way of teaching is boring

she's really a nice teacher, she doesnt scold us alot

even though most of us dont really pay attention whenever

she is discussing, and i feel bad for that.

kaya ngaun, im gonna listen na, or at least try my best to do so

she may not be able to teach us for the whole school year.

so that sucks, she cried ... she's in deep pain.

and she doesnt want to take surgery because it costs

half a million pesos and she doesnt want to.

i really feel bad for her, i pity her alot.

so we prayed for her during our bible study.

i really want her to be healed, be cured.. or at least

give her more than 100% endurance so that she can

endure the pain whenever it comes.

i love my teachers, though sometimes i blog about them

doing stuff i dont really want.. i still care.

im not a self-centered person, i care about the people around me.

and right now, tears are about to fall from my eyes.

so im gonna stop this topic na.

my gosh.

ayoko na :)) magtetext na lang ako

bye bye

2009-08-06T16:51:00.003+08:00

read this first :)

for those english readers, specifically.

the 2fortitudents, i wanna blog in tagalog. la.

its much fun :)) i'll translate on msn if ya want. haha

ask me whatever happened during that day if ur interested.

if not then lets leave my blog at that. :D

i love ya hahas

bonding kame ni kapatid :))

namis kong mag blog ng tagalog! ahh haha

kanina, madami kaming napag usapan with MCP.

kaso may motto kami

'what you see, what you hear, when you go, leave it here'

na leave don sa classroom kaya nd pwede ma blog :))

sensya na kay aaron, at sa others na ReguLaR na nagbbsa neto

hm, so aun unli pa rin ako, dun sa mga 3p magtext, text lang.

dun sa walang load, aba..wala lang xDD

wala na ko ma say. MISS KO NA BESPREN KO x(

lapit na bday ko.haha knkbhan naq.

hanggang d2 na muna tau mga tsong. bukas ulet haha

2009-08-05T20:59:00.002+08:00

after a month of not seeing each other.

finally, bea-yen thandem has been a certified thandem again.

haha bullshit, i know :))

k wat im trying to say is, i finally saw my bestest friend

in the whole wide world after a month.

we had a lot to talk about, gossips, chuva whatever.

haha im gonna see her again , on my birthday :D

hm, its just a week away btw.

i treated her , since i cant buy her a gift.

we ate at sir Greg's store, then yeah. thats it

okay thats it actually. bye =)

2009-08-04T16:21:00.003+08:00

ohhkay, that was at the 2nd fLr. restroom.

we had a little costume change, for our speech news reporting.

i 4got to bring heeLs, i was wearing converse whiLe

reporting news about the DEATH of Cory Aquino.

i Looked so inappropriate for my report.

but whatever, haha its over already

I LOVED MAU,JAM,LEIA,KAT and BIANCA's news report.

cos its aLL about comedy :))

haha aLing Dionisia and Kris Aquino sobbing xD

they were awesome hahaha.

okay thats it, i think later im going to my best friend's house

ceLebration of her birthday, that was yesterday.

i'LL bLog later if anything interesting happens again :)

2009-08-03T21:05:00.001+08:00

went to NAARA's(girl in blue)house today

to practice for our speech news reporting shit.

hahah.. we laughed our asses off, and it was awesome.

going there was the probLem, because her house is

so damn far, and so damn hard to reach. ugh...

i was riding a bike, with a heavy passenger

imagine how that would've felt. xDD

SUFFERING.. gosh darned suffering.

okay nehmind.. haha bye bye

2009-08-02T11:43:00.003+08:00

chatted with that dude yesterday.

hirman jeffrey b mohd zaibidi

oh yea i still know his LOOOOOONG name :D

so yeah, crapped with him ytd.

talked bout freddy and gerryl and shirley and that weird

girl from drama. damn i 4got her name again! >.<

then i also chatted wif fatin on facebook chat.

then erm today, my dad and grandfather,(lolo)

painted our gate today. it was brown, now its black :D

then yesternight, we celebrated my sister's 3rd month

birthday, we ate cake :D then took pix, its on my facebook.

then err.. nothing else? :D

2009-08-01T18:38:00.003+08:00

Nur Fatin Bte Alia

im not sure about her name

but i know its something like that

i miss her like giller. xD

im sure PRECISE! that

she feels the same. haha

2009-07-31T19:45:00.003+08:00

ung pictures nasa facebook ko

dun nyo nalang tgnan, kktmad i post lahat d2 mdami

nag bible study kami ngaun

meron tatlong dagdag na lalake. ung isa dun admirer ni joy

wahahaha.nag gitara ung isa.aus.tas ung isa ATE raw.

anu un? joklaers? haha baka.

hm aun, topic namen ay.... teka anu nga ba ??

promises

what are promises?

promises are meant to be broken?

wah naks..anu nga ba meaning ni joy dun?! xDD

tae nalimutan ko, xhiet,.okay nevermind

ligalig kase e, prang nd tumatak sa utak at puso ko

ung topic namen today, si mash, minasahe ako..

na reLax at nwLa ung utak ko, lumipad.

haha tapos aun, nag meryenda...nag kulitan

ligalig tlaga, nag picturan, d pde mwala yan pag nnjan ako

tas umuwi na,

WALANJO! MERONG BATA DUN NA CNABHAN KO N

NANG KYUT! PINALO PA KO! NAMULA BRASO KO

TAPOS SI NAARA SA LIKOD PINALO. HAHA

merong lumabas sa bahay na walang tshirt

akala ko babae, kase laylay ung boobs. lalake pla

sori po.tapos habng ngppktyur kame, meh humarang na ale

walanjong ale yan.

tapos aun

balik tau sa bbalikan.. sa skul , nag unit test kami sa math

grabeh, mga schoLar ang pang hapon! xDD

sabi ni annj yan a, binLog ko lang hehe.

hm knna, ppsok nq ng skuL, bgLang meh tao s Lkod ko

si casey n pLa.haha..magic daw e, nd nmn xDD

tapos aun..ligalig na naman...

nag quiz, blabla.

ntwa ko sa computer teacher namen knna

BLUETHOOT daw e

tapos Portable PSP.

walanjo un, psp na nga portable pa. xDD

tapos an daya non, pinag net ang panghapon, kame nde.

tskk.TANG juice drink o

okei aun na bye na

OW YEH!

2009-07-30T14:10:00.002+08:00

picture ko kagabi nung wala akong magawa.

saya sa school ngaun.

nung umaga aun katabi ko sila ej,puji at yung 4anger na si Rico

naiwan ni puji id nya, tapos kumakain sila ng wheat bread.

aun lang.pasok n sa kLasrum, si arLeia ang nag devotion.

hm anu pa ba? nag check kami ng test papers.

kuntento naman ako, pasado naman eh

nung CL, nd ako nksgot nung pna recite ung memory verse

mental block, kkkbisa ko lang kase,tsktsk

tapos aun, nkabawi naman ako kase tnawag pdn ako

nag raise pdn ako ng hand, kase alam ko ung sagot.haha

hm, nung recess, humingi ako kay dian ng burjer.

alangya cheeseburger ng mcdo ang dnala eh ang

pnpdala e wheat bread n may gulay at chuva..

aun, balik sa classroom... science period! walangya.

ako napagbintangan na nagsulat sa

test questionares ni cher greis

amp.kase naman may DES na nakasulat..

xempre, ako un, lam ko kng cnu nagsulat non..

pero ako npgbntangan.walanya.

pero aus lang, sumikat ako sa klasrum ...

tapos nung math walang lesson, nag emote lang si sir.

actually, si cher mylene ang nag emowt , inemowtan si sir greg.

bsta aun na un, bka mabisto p tong blog na toh e. xDD

hm tas aun, since wlang lesson, daldalan galore, mgkksma mcp

dun sa gitna , sa pwesto namen.. then nag usap usap tungkol sa

kng ano ano, tapos nagkaron kame ng ganto

DESCRIBE -CHUVA- IN ONE WORD

DWEYN - quiet o emo

CARLA - siga

ANNJ - tutor

FEDES - astig

NAARA - baliw

JOY - ambot

MAEGAN - brainsandbeauty

DIAN - pasaway or malibog

KRISHA - dalagang pilipina

tas hinatid ako ni carla pauwi, ayaw ni mau eh kaya wag na

wag na xa. haha. tas eto nagtetext na lang ako

suddenly, ginanahan na ko mag comp ng maaga at

mag blog, i guess im back, 98% n cguro. haha

2009-07-29T19:28:00.003+08:00

- nakakatamad na mag-blog -

I am 95% back to normal. kelan pa kaya magiging 100% ?

july 25, 2009. important date yan.. haha

hm, kanina sabay kami pumasok.

ewan ko kung talagang na-tyempuhan lang niya ako

...or na-tyempuhan lang tlga nya ko xDD

sana araw araw niya ko ma-tyempuhan kung ganun.

PESTENG UBO TO. srap puksain.

kaso, pinupuksa na nga ayaw pang magpatalo.badtrip

siguro naman next week tapos na, wala na toh! dapat lang.

para maging hyper na ako ulet. para hindi boring.

hm,ayun lang ata.pareho kaming walang load eh

july 29, 2009..araw ng pahinga ko..pahinga sa pagtetext. hehe

lapit na mag august.. hindi nanaman ako excited.

parang last year..>.<

lets hope that this year would be a better one.

okei hanggang dito muna mga peepz..babooshki (:

2009-07-28T20:15:00.002+08:00

i havent been taking any pix.

so in the meantime, im taking pix off the net

i was coughing NONSTOP at schooL today.

and i was quiet, so in other words..

today was boring... i went back this afternoon to take

a special exam.i asked sir Galang then he said

'no, no special exams for transferees from Singapore'

hahaha.tsktsk.i still took the test though.

i didnt study that much thats why i found the test quite hard.

nehmind,hahaha.

i hope my energy will be in the hyper mode tomorrow (:

bye bye MWA

2009-07-26T20:18:00.003+08:00

tagal ko ring di nakapag update a.

walanjong sakit toh.d na nawala. T-T

mkkpasok p kya q bukas ? SANAAAA

ayokong makamis ng lesson pati may exam pq. >.<

SI YEN.

bihira magkasakit, pero once na nagkasakit GRABEH!

d ko na keri, i was about to give up

naka dalawang balik ako sa ospitaL.

sa sta rosa med at ska sa asian...

sa sta rosa med, tinurukan ako. TT-TT

kinuhaan ng dugo.nag nebuLizer,tas umuwi rin.

knabukasan, sa asian naman..sbi ni dok,trangkaso raw to

mtgaL bago mwLa..

tapos aun, tumaas ang temp q hnggang 39.5

grabehh...

I WAS SICK FOR almost 4 days.

i feel like dying liao.

2009-07-23T18:45:00.002+08:00

second day of examinations DONE (:

kumanta ang idoL kong si abegaiL sureL ngaun (:

mrami pang ibang kumanta pero auko n bnggitin :D

si CARLA ROS! gumawa ng eksena knna.hahaha

wag nLang sbhn d2 bka hantingin ako non bukas xDD

LINTEK NA...pinaghiwahiwaLay na ang MCP

sa recess n nga lang tau may freedom.este kami..

tnanggaL pa ung freedom na un! walanjo!!

galet na galet na ung kapitbahay namen,

galet na galet siya sa ingay, galet xa sa mcp

huhuhuhuhu

byaan mo na

tas pag uwi ko, grabeh lumala sakit ko

nung umaga ubo lang tlga.

hnggang naging sipon ubo lagnat na.

taas ng temperature ko ah 38.3... tas aun

uminom ako gamot at naidLip... pag gcng ko

mejo okay na, nkkpag comp n ko, pero d p q mxado nkkpag araL

tae nga eh, araL na ko. bye

2009-07-22T19:28:00.000+08:00

CURRENT MOOD : AWKWARD & VAIN

2009-07-22T15:25:00.003+08:00

first day of exams today.

pis op keyk naman xDD

merong tatLong babaeng meh bertday ngaun

una na jan si JONNA ABIGAIL NITRO ((:

si cher Magda at cher Wendy.

kht d niLa ko kLaLa e todo grit naman ako s knLa.

ebritaym n dadaan cLa sa kLasrum, kht nga cnung dumaan e

nag hahapi bertday ako, prang tanga pero astig.haha

tapos si ser Greg ang gaLing.

edi inutusan ni cher si nitz na pumunta sa kLasrum ng jehosaphat

nsa 3rd fLoor p un, kmi , sa 2nd

tapos aun, bbgyan dw namen si nitz ng regaLo ! weee!

haha si maegs ang inassign n bumiLi, dpat ako kso kktmad.

hahaha.tas aun, edi bumaLik n si nitz eh nd p tapos pag uusap

pinabaLik uLet, hahaha...

then pgbLik nya, k n tLga. tapos na :))

NUNG RECESS!

may cake na daLa si nitz.! haha

umiraL nnman ang pggng Patay Gideon! :))

hahaha...naghati hati kaming mcp sa cake.sarap mocha flavor

tama ba spelling?? hehe

tapos aun, tinungga q ung coke, nag yuck cLa ewn q kng bket

mga abnormal

tapos pagtapos ng exam...

nagpunta kami sa soLomon's haLL nag laro ng

enchanton robbers. ewn q kng yan b spelling XDD

d pde sa kLasrum kasi daw maingay kame.haha

then aun, AKO ANG UNANG PINAPATAY NILA!!

takte, meh gaLet ata skn mga kkLase ko hahahaha

walanjumong yan...ayaw akong pag laruin

tas aun, kng cnu cnu na, tinuro ko si MAU garces.

then kung cnu cnu na tinuro,

HALOS LAHAT NG NAMAMATAY, KASAPI SA MCP xDD

meh gaLet ata samen ang kLase a.

tapos dhL sa sobrang enjoy sa laro

late n kmi nakauwi, hehe. ang daya ni ser.

bgLang nksama xa sa mga robbers.

tapos kaming mga patay, mistuLang buhay pa xDD

thats it

the guy who likes me is getting tutored by his classmate

he's teaching him how to make 'ligaw' haha adik.

then just now, he sent me quotes, love quotes.

haha, he always does..but he mentions 'ily' a lot now.

yeah x) bye

of all the prettier girls out there, why me??

2009-07-21T18:11:00.004+08:00

OMG! EXAMS TOMORROW! -.-"

nkpag araL nq pero...ewn q kng meh pumasok

ba sa kokote koh, i hope na meron.

i hope yung mga kinabisa ko kani-kanina lang eh

hindi lumipad sa utak ko kpag nagsasagot na koh.

wahahaha. :))

lam nyo, tnadtad kame ng sermon ngaun. x)

ni cher Greis at ser Greg.

tanong nyo nLang ako sa personaL kung anu ngyre.wahahaha

tapos...bsta aun, its no big deal nmn kht i got scoLded.

ppkabaet ako for a few hours then daLdaL uLet.

d lang ako mxado mkkbweLo bkas kc exams nga tapos

hindi nman madadaLdaL mga katabi ko bukas.

i hope na oo pero hinde tLga xDD

okei kami(Gideonites)ang last na umuwi ngaun! fuccckkk..

wala na kahit 4th year! maigad! nag soLb pa kase, waLanjo

tapos ano, edi nakauwi n ko, nd pq nag uumpisang mag araL

nang may nag text

"punta ka sa tndahan ni ser Greg, lilibre kita."

nd ko nbsa kagad kase kumaen pq.so aun, edi pnta ako.

tas aun, nkkpagsaLita paLa c Bas e. :))

wooo,nakausap n nya q, haha congrats =))

tas aun, inasar ako niLa tita at ate pag uwi ko, x P

hmm then nag araL na ko.. mbLis lang ..kase

nag araL nq kahapon at mejo naaLaLa q p nmn ung iba

sa math lang tLga ako nagaaLaLa.kaseee..mhrap. xDD

kpag nag aaraL ako, okey aLam koh , ayan, gnyan ggwen

then kpag ibang equation na ang nakatambad sa aking mga mata

wala na.. bobo na ko. T-T

engLish at TLE, pis op keyk lang yan, kering keri.

math math math lang tlga, puta. pffffttt...

tapos meron pa! ngaun ngaun lang toh hah

si aaron nagtext,dadaan raw xa d2 samen

kala ko naman d2 mismo sa bahay, ung as in mkkpag usap p xa

pero nde, dumaan lang tlga wahahaha

sabi ba naman 'gnda mo tLga kht nktLkod'

waLanjo, geh banat lang ng banat xDD

thats it.

in other words, today was cooL.

i got scoLded a few times. PE was a kiLLer but a fun kiLLer xDD

then then... hmm.. someone treated me shake. sweet *

then errr nothing eLse, wish me Luck! exams R coming up!

^-^

2009-07-20T16:36:00.003+08:00

i think i was moody today.

but my mood swung back to the happy side.

hope it stays there for long! :))

got to schooL, almost everyone recognized that

im not acting normal

everyone was like

'are you okay?'

'y r u so quiet?'

'did smthing happen?'

i guess it just shows that everyone cares.

or they dont want me to be quiet because theres no one

to share or make noise or happiness inside the room.

IDK & IDC.

i got back to my bubbly outgoing crazy self few hours later.

when it was dismissal time xDD

then CarLa waLked me home, then thats it (:

2009-07-19T16:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY,

GIO ANDREI L. DURAN

it was heLd at a swimming pooL near their house yesterday

but today,July 20, 09., is his real birthdate.

okay, hope he would start being a good boy to his parents

and to everyone around him (:

so at the party, peopLe were like , "yen,sing for us"

but i wasnt in the mood to sing, heck i wasnt in a good mood

at all, because of this stupid 'time of the month' hahah -.-"

so i got even more pissed. pfft.

okay so after going to the party,

we went to Makati first, visited our comp shop

then went to MOA, supposed to watch HP on IMAX

but it was soLd out aLready, so nvr got to watch. _|_

then, walked walked walked around MOA for hours...

bought red skinny and shorts.

-then my hp died- -.-" _|_

got even more pissed so asked parents to go home.

sLept in car then arrived home around 8-ish.

i was about to sLeep when i rmmber, got stupid recitation

and muthafuckin quiz in science & math.. oh fcuk..

so got up to study,

i hurt somebody's feelings... T-T

gosh, i can be pretty fcuking stupid sometimes(most of the time)

hope he's okay...

okay so thats kinda it. this was the most stressful day evah!

2009-07-17T19:48:00.004+08:00

ayan ang MCP-Cell-Group.

di pa yan kumpLeto! hahaha.kasi nauLan,fanet ee

ang topic namen tungkoL sa 'change' o pagbabago.

si joy ang leader , enjoy naman, nd xa boring, :))

tapos anLameeg. hahaha anung konek?

geh geh thats aLL. dami ko ktxt ee! ugh

ENGLISH!!

me and my friends had our second bibLe study today.

at Joy's house, we talked about change.

yeah thats it! more pix at my friendster (:

2009-07-17T14:59:00.003+08:00

gandang umaga!

swerte mga panghapon wala kasi silang pasok!

langyang signal yan, d p dumating ng maaga! pfft.

haha pero aus lang, nag enjoy naman ee.

wala ko mxado ma-say, binentahan kami ng yema ni ser Greg

actually kay cher mavic un, nahiya atang ibenta.

the end muna.

BibLe study mmya keLa joy 4pm, blog ulet ako.

ENGLISH!

since syura wanted to read my blog but couldnt cos

its already 'tagalized' haha im gonna have two separate

languages in one post! :)) its up to me whether i like to

translate the tagalog one, or create another topic in english

uh whatever luh,yen .just type :))

yesternight, i chatted wif syura, hahaha she kinda got pissed

at me bcos of th questions haikaL wanted me to ask her.

do i hav to bLog it? no, so i wont eLabor8 anymor. haha

i chatted wif meLdy oso, she's having probs wif haLLie

(as usual). whenever we chat, aLways bout him larh.

so boring. xD can think of other topic aside from him ?

im getting sick of the same old boring routine ,

love, ugh, its annoying. :))

good thing, my heart's still in good shape, its still mine.

no one has stolen it yet. xP

2009-07-16T19:42:00.003+08:00

tinatamad na akong mag post eh.

kaso ... wala , nag post pa rin! hahaha

andami n nating pictures, mcp! :))

eto yung kwento

umuulan, hinihintay kong tumila ung ulan

tumila naman kaso may ambon pa rin.

kht na may ambon, nag lakad na ko keLa joy.

ang layo taktena tapos pgdting ko dun...

pnta n kme keLa maegzz ang gaLing kasi

pagdting n pgdting namen aun na c naara.

haha bababa n ng traysikel

tapos ayun, feeL at home ako.kahiga sa kama ni maegs

ayoko n magkwento.kktmad! BYE!

2009-07-16T13:14:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey

dapat mmya pa ko mag a update neto e

kase ggwa kami prajek keLa maegan mmya..

syempre, mag pipicturan nnman kame don.

pero bsta, update nLang uLet ako mya! (:

2009-07-15T19:10:00.003+08:00

pix all on friendster!

ka adikan namen, lahat nandon!

dito lang ang kwento! :))

okei, sabi niLa mga 2 raw cLa ppnta...

dumating cLa 3 :)) adik diba?

tapos ayun, nag paka adik nanaman,

cna annj at joy nagpanggap na ako hbang ka chat c geLow.

adik diba? tapos, dumating c naara few mins apter...

pinag isipang mabuti ang ggwin sa prajek na nkakagago...

pagtapos mag isep, aun action na! XD wLanjo amfanet nung

gngwa koh, kase caLendar ung prajek, e dba may rows

ung caLendar, aun, amfanet nung rows koh!

kung keLan mLpet na kong matapos! saka cnv nitong naara'ng to

na i computerized nLang! sayang kasi yung effort ko!

kung keLan ptpos na, saka gumanda ung gnwa ko!

WLANJO DIBA?!

tapos aun, puro picture picture na lang.

ung isa, coupLe by coupLe, kunwari kissing scene. :))

ewan ko kung naging succesfuL ba! bukas uLet , keLa maegan naman

:)) hahahhaha

aun lang the end.

darating ang panahon
iiyakan rin kita
dahil sinabi mong
ayaw mo na...

2009-07-14T18:30:00.002+08:00

hindi ako makapag upload sa youtube!

sa sampu+ na video na keLangan kong i upLoad...

iisa pa lang ang na-a-upload kho. :))

argh

wala masyadong interesadong nangyare today.

naLaman ko lang na grabeh din pala ang PE dito.

mas grabeh pa rin sa singapore, of course.

pareho lang cLa tr Dang at ms.Chua.

mas tombz si ms.Chua! hahahahahaahhahaha

nakaktakot yon..mas lab ko na c tr dang :))

-- wla pa rin ung load q from tita kaya di ako makapag unLi --

i cant make you love me, if you dont.
you cant make your heart feel
something it wont.

2009-07-13T14:00:00.003+08:00

heller! ganda ng pix noh?

yung nksuLat sa kamay ni carLa e eto :

i freakin love you , yen!

haha ung aken number ko lang, wa wenta! xD

cnandaLan nung teacher namen sa science ung

white board kaya ayun, heVgats siya, nasira..

inamen naman nyang maVgat siya. :))

tawa ako eh.

absent c krisha ngaun! anu ba yownn..

tapos, tawa lang ng tawa sa skuL

gi-ni-em ko na toh eh :

07.13.09 -- araw ng pagtataksiL.

hahaha... si lavs kase eh! kung kani kanino nakabet! pfft.

nilalabanan ko talaga, pramis

2009-07-12T14:10:00.003+08:00

im having troubles regarding my love life

this stupid heart cant make up its mind.

it wants to be owned by two people

but it likes/loves neither.

it loves another person...

that person has everything my heart is looking for

but he has too many girls around him to see that...

i dont think i want to be one of those girls

HOPING to be the one he desires...

maybe i should be contented with having friends and family

to love and to love me back.

maybe , im better off without any 'special someone'

or maybe im just speaking like this because of the alcohol ?

i need a smoke, i need to clear off my mind.

i need space , i need time, ... i need him.

2009-07-11T18:54:00.002+08:00

CLICK TO ENLARJ!

hahaha idoL na idoL ni ser Greg si bezebz.(ezra)

eto yung buong kwento (flashback tau)

lumabas ako ng bahay kase nagtext c bes(bea)

nandun na paLa cLa aaron,geLo,bea sa labas

hinintay namen si ezra sa may upuan nung kapitbahay .hehe

tapos pagdating ni ezra, ayun nagpunta na kami sa

'website' ni ser Greg.hahaha.ung tindahan nya.

astig ng tinda, astig nung bungo(koreksyon,kaLansay)

eh bket ba, kung yung bungo ang astig para saken!? :))

haha, tapos may koreano pang dumating, bingyan si

ser ng ice cream,waLanjo, ako ndi manLang bingyan

kamusta naman yon?! tapos ayun, nagpicture picturan(duhh)

tapos, bgLa b naman akong pinauwi, kase naman

hindi ako nag paaLam! nyaks! aun, dun muna kami tumambay

sa tapat ng bahay namen, dun nagkwentuhan

chorvaLicious...tapos eh gabi na, kaya uwian na.

dumaan muna cLa keLa ser greg, haaay naku.wLa mee haha

tapos aun, the end! :)

2009-07-10T18:46:00.004+08:00

HAPPY 14th BIRTHDAY!

LOUIS ANGELO VERDADERO!

wassup mga mehn!?

okay so, aun nga, nag ceLebr8 kmi ng bday ni geLow.

(the dude in bLue sa first picture)

una, nagpunta kami keLa JOY!(ung GIRL na nka sky bLue)

nag bibLe study.

tapos aun punta na keLa geLow.

ang saya, ginawa namen cLang waitress.

este, WAITERSSS.

hahaha... msaya xa! SI EBZ LANG WALA!

huhu kawawa! xD

aun lang, pi bertday pareng geLo.

:))

2009-07-09T14:29:00.005+08:00

click to enLarge.

hahaha! Jeff's an idiot, and Gerr's a genius?

its one of those annoying ads facebook shows.

bLabLa

schooL was boring...as usuaL hahaha

acted a crappy report in C.L.

went outside for an experiment in science , it was friggin hot.

chatted with JAM! MASH.ANNJ! KRISHA! and BIANCA!

about boyfriends, boys, reLationships. chuva.

na-fLatter tLga ako, nung cnv ni Jam na strong yung personaLity ko.

actuaLLy sbi nya, ang gnda daw ng personaLity ko

tapos sabi ko "onga, at least my mgnda saken.hahaha"

ewan, nd ata niLa narinig. hahhahaha

tapos ayun, andaming ni-reveaL ni mash saken...

hanggang coLLege???.... omfg, kaya mo un ?

grabeh, hindi ko kineri ung narinig kong yun from mash a..

grabeh tLga, grabeh ....

okay , bukas wLang pasok, AUS!! jogging with mcp

KUNG MAGIGISING!

................................................

love is a strong word..

a fvcking strong word.

2009-07-08T18:38:00.003+08:00

another GALA DAY !

nung uwian, sumabay cLa dweyn at joy samen

para tgnan ung agriment sa math, maLi pLa ung gnwa koh! x(

tapos, aun, nung 4, ngpnta q keLa Joy

inangkas aq, ppnta keLa dweyn, tpos pgdting keLa dweyn

pinag usapan ung assynment, aus, nkkopya ako! (:

tapos, nd namen aLam ung last part, ,kaya npgpsyahang

magpunta keLa maegan pra mangopya

kaso xa rn ang nangopya samen. hahaha ! este s knLa pLa

nakikopya lng dn ako. hehe.

tapos aun, pgtpos , ngpaburjer ako...tapos uwi na.

the end.

AARON! hahaha LOAD KO! ^^V

2009-07-07T18:58:00.003+08:00

magandang gabi sa inyong lahat.

gabi na ko nakapag post kase pag uwi ko gumawa agad

ako ng agriment sa math, nkaLahati ko na nang maaLaLa

kong wLa naman pLang math bukas, trigonometry kame

ayun, nabadtrip ako, kaya ndi ko na tinapos.

tapos nag araL ako sa science kase may recitation kami

bago ko mag umpisang mag araL hinanda ko na ung

libro ko sa AP at FiliPino kase may i a advance reading ako

tapos makaraan ang iLang oras ng pag aaraL sa siyensa

ntapos na rin ako, pero inayos q nLang ang bag ko

kase npgod na ang utak ko , ndi nLang ako nag advance.

bhLa na.

tapos, ayun, imbis na magpahinga, nagtext nLang ako.

at nag facebook, nagLaro at nag edit.

aun lang =X

BAS! gwin bang tagabigay si geLo? hehe

hmm.saLamat uLet sa ako mismo dogtag. (:

MORE PICTURES! at EK

2009-07-06T20:28:00.003+08:00

AYAN NA PO ANG PAYBORITS NYONG STOLEN NI DWEYN!

HAHA ENJOI!

2009-07-06T17:50:00.004+08:00

hahaha gumaLa ako ngayon! whooo !

Happy Birthday kay Caleb (utoL ni joy)

nd manLang aq inimbita.tsktsk. haha joke

magpupunta tLga q dpat keLa joy kc keLangan

namen nung straw para sa speech, pra san kaya!?

tapos ayon, nkta ko don cLa maegan at annj! nakikikaen!

haha, so aun, piniLit ako ni joy na kumaen n rin,

tapos picture picture ... tapos pinuntahan namen

si dweyn.bheb tapos sabay sabay kaming nagpunta sa

don rogeLio's para nga don sa straw,

haha kaLa namen pde humingi ng extra straw,

sayang yung boses ni bheb tapos ayun,

nagpprint ako, ampogi nung guy na nasa comp,

agree si maegan.pero taken n yan

hahaha.d ko nga nakuha number o pngaLan

nahawakan ko naman kmay! whoooot! x)

tapos, ikot ikot sa cLubhouse, nghnap ng tatapunan

nung shake na biniLi namin ni joy tapos picture picture muna

tapos nauna nang umuwe cLa maegan at annj, layo pa kc ng

bahay tapos para kong tanga n may dLa dLang bike

ndi naman ginagamet. sagwa dba? hahaha tapos ayun,

pagdating sa kanto, humiwaLay n kmi

ni joy kay dweyn, uwi na xa,

tapos inangkas ko si SUPERNAPAKATODAMAX

bigat na si joy. haha hanggang sa

kaniLa tapos ayun, umuwe na q

BAS! YUNG DOG TAG KO,

AKEN NA! XD

-adikLy yours,
YEN(:

2009-07-04T20:58:00.005+08:00

im lazy to post all the pictures.

its on my friendster anyway.

hmm, i dont think its a reunion, if we were 38 in cLass

and onLy 8 of those damn students showed up.

but nvm it was fun without the other 30 retards.

I SCREAMED/YELLED AT EVERY FVCKING RIDE WE RODE.

haha, its fun, shouting and getting peopLe's attention.

hahaha! though we looked like totaL idiots

sumigaw bang ntatakot sa carouseL?? juskoh.

naduLas pa c bheb.munch.DWEYN (:

tatLong beses pa. hahaha keri nyo yon?

tapos.... aun sumakay kmi ng anchor's away

dLwang magkasunod kaya sumama pakramdam namen

tapos umuLan pa, badtrip! LaLong na spoiL ung mood namen

tapos, kumaen, aun pLa gutom lng ang knbbd3p haha

mdaming nangyreng d ko ineXpect.

UI! BERTDEY NI SER GREG!! PI BERTDAY!

hahaha

okeii. dati akong takot sa log jam. pero ngaun

wLa boring naman pLa! hahaha

tapos may ngtapat pa hbang nag coconcentr8

ako at haLos humiwaLay n kaLuLuwa q sa ktwan ko

msta nmn un. haha . naiLang ako at obyus nmn cguro.

tapos, aun, samen dumerecho, nagpLpas oras.

tas nung mga bndang mag e 8 na.

aun, uwian bLues na kase tntwag nq pra kumaen

hahaha.meron dng nag i lab yu . susmaryusep.

hindi pantay ang pagmamahal naten